Close or far

Closing the eyes so i cannot be distracted by anything, focusing on your image on my mind, building you from scratch so once you are here i can be filled again and we can be united as one like we were supposed to be.

Opening my heart so i can feel all the love you can give me and i didn't deserve. Damn all my stupid defences, my fears, my worries, my fooliness that clouded myself from the breath of fresh air you are in my life.

Getting my hands together in a silence pray to a higher power hoping for a wisdow i dont possess, accepting my human condition that i am unable to grasp the clarity to know what i have to do to have her back.

Separating the moments in my mind to build a collection of them, good or bad, because i really dont mind how they are, they matter because they are, simple as that. That's what made us, made us unique.

Merging our souls in one is all i wish i could do and im thankful that despite all I have done, all the bad decisions I made, I think you wish the same. You always easily gave your love so we can be one now and forever.

So that's where i stand and gladly I surrender to you, with no questions, no doubts, just me standing here patiently waiting you to decide if you want to be close or far.